Feels deeply resonant. I do wonder though at what point our exhaustion turns us into a tragic hero (should I have given up much sooner?), and at what point our collapse is simply a lack of discipline (should I have kept going?).
straight up heat. so fucking resonant with my experience of all this. that deep, visceral moment of "oh, whoa, this is NOT going to fucking work" unlocks so much every time
"You have to cry and scream and plead and make every effort to hack the system, to somehow get the things you want without becoming a new type of person. Without undergoing a process of transformation that consists almost entirely of decay."
With joyous hindsight, this is a beautiful description of one of the major transformative events of my life - all accelerated through in an intense few hours of an aya journey (and then a day moping around the jungle feeling the flattest I imagine it's possible to feel) where I'd figured what I was 'trying to work out' was something about 'love' and tried every damn hack and clever mind-bending approach I could, until it hit me in the marrow that I had absolutely nothing of any use.
Thankfully, after a day genuinely thinking I may have done some serious internal damage, it all got rather more beautiful after that :)
This is such an inspirational and insightful perspective on evolutionary exhaustion, a powerful reminder that the drips of failure we experience from trying to get rich quick are making an ocean of wealth at our feet.
Feels deeply resonant. I do wonder though at what point our exhaustion turns us into a tragic hero (should I have given up much sooner?), and at what point our collapse is simply a lack of discipline (should I have kept going?).
This was soo good!!
❤️🔥
straight up heat. so fucking resonant with my experience of all this. that deep, visceral moment of "oh, whoa, this is NOT going to fucking work" unlocks so much every time
Banger
fr tho
"You have to cry and scream and plead and make every effort to hack the system, to somehow get the things you want without becoming a new type of person. Without undergoing a process of transformation that consists almost entirely of decay."
With joyous hindsight, this is a beautiful description of one of the major transformative events of my life - all accelerated through in an intense few hours of an aya journey (and then a day moping around the jungle feeling the flattest I imagine it's possible to feel) where I'd figured what I was 'trying to work out' was something about 'love' and tried every damn hack and clever mind-bending approach I could, until it hit me in the marrow that I had absolutely nothing of any use.
Thankfully, after a day genuinely thinking I may have done some serious internal damage, it all got rather more beautiful after that :)
This is such an inspirational and insightful perspective on evolutionary exhaustion, a powerful reminder that the drips of failure we experience from trying to get rich quick are making an ocean of wealth at our feet.
Love it!
I don’t get it. Go all in on where I am now - am I not already doing that